.

I want to be brought into your reality
No longer will I be in a dream
A figment of your imagination
I want to be real to you
More than real
A part of what makes you whole
However this is still my dream
My dream without you
Without reality

I wrote this like a year ago, I don't even know what I think of it at all. Sounds teenage and moody.

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I cannot find myself through you
I can't expect to look at you
and be everything that was imagined
An apology can only get me so far
or nowhere at all
I cannot set out to discover something
if I never explored before
The only way to find myself
Explore
Is to finally say I'm sorry
and look in the mirror

I have no ideas!

My mind is in a permanent brain fart. I have no ideas. Well I have many but it's so hard to expand on them. Bah, I suck at writing things on paper, rather type. I hate my handwriting.

I think my plan of writing a complete screenplay before college is not going to turn out.

Sooooooooooo there is no point to this, but I haven't blogged in awhile.

Why does poetry always have to be depressing?
I want to talk about the sun kissing my cheeks
late on Sunday morning
To express the words that gleefully bounce off my tongue
whenever I see you approach
Sing out the feeling of grass between my toes
To try to explain the unexplainable love I feel
of the Man above
Why does poetry have to be depressing?
Happiness should not be an extinct emotion.

Boo Radley

A poem.

Pale, blonde and weird.
No one knows for sure what they've done
Only a rumor
Only a thing of legend
Kept inside to become a recluse in your own mind
Never knowing why
Leave the treasure
Drop the hints
Maybe for once someone will actually care
Care enough to knock on the door
Always a figure of imagination
But always there with a blanket and a knife

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."
— Maya Angelou


































"If one cannot enjoy reading a book over and over again, there is no use in reading it at all."
— Oscar Wilde

I'm in a weird mood today. A let's drink tea, wear a sun dress, and listen to A Fine Frenzy type day. However, I can't wear a sun dress because it's beyond windy and cold out and I don't know if I want to go downstairs and make tea. But! I am listening to A Fine Frenzy (I want her hair)

Oh and just so everyone knows, I love quotes and amateur photography.

I need to vent.

All rightly let me just start of saying I hate Hollywood and just the whole entertainment industry.

You have girls, 'singers', dancing around in their music videos wearing next to nothing, with lyrics that insinuate sex, or something along those lines, and guess what these girls (and men) get paid millions of dollars. The music they play is genetic, meaningless, and I hate this word but stupid. I get it, because sometimes I listen to it, it's fun listen to mindless music. But music shouldn't be mindless, music should be something that you hear not only go through your ears but through your veins and your soul. It should be more than words (isn't that a song lyric?). These people, I cannot fathom calling them 'artists', get paid the big bucks when real musicians, real artists barely get paid, but really are very much unknown.

To be honest the music industry does annoying me but for anyone who knows me, knows that I've wanted to be a film director ever since I was ten, so dumb movies annoy me the most. 3D. Pointless. Unnecessary. I'm not just saying this because I cannot see in 3D but because do you really want to have a head fly in your face whilst watching a movie? No, you want to simply watch it. You don't have to literally be in the movie to enjoy it. They didn't do that in Hollywood's Golden Age.

It's not just 3D that gets on my last nerve but also the lack of original material. Oh good guess what yet another movie from the 80's is being remade. Oh cool another sequel. Pretty soon movies made 2 years ago are going to be remade, oh wait they already are! There are no original stories coming out of Hollywood anymore. Sure one gets made every once in awhile but normally not.

I get adaptations, honestly some of my favorite films are based off books and musicals. Remakes are what really bother me though. And I must say when a movie doesn't follow the story of the novel or the musical it makes the film pointless to me.

I for one would love to be in a film studio meeting. I think it would go something like this; "Let's make another horror film remake from the 80's and use that Disney channel girl, but we need to make her boobs bigger." They will grin wide and then throw money in the air while they dance to some mindless pop song. LOL!

Now, I know there are original and unique films still made today, but I'm talking about Hollywood. The big movies. Why are they stupid I ask? Do movie studios think the general public is that dumb? Well I guess since we go and buy tickets to films like this we must be. But they can change that and I think they know that.

You would think after reading this that I wouldn't want to be in the film industry, but I do! I really, really do! I love film. I love to sit down and escape to the world of make believe. I want to be apart of the magic, just not the magic, or lack there of, that's going on now. I know it's a big dream but maybe I could help bring originality back to the film world.

I could ramble more, but I doubt anyone will read past the title, but for those who care what I think about entertainment there you go.